ACFIP Newsletter 

December 2018

Issue 59

Quarterly Newsletter of the Australian Centre for Inner Peace






1. Individual healing sessions via Skype


I have been giving healing sessions for over 30 years, and have now decided to offer healing sessions via Skype. When I travel and give workshops I am often asked for a session but have virtually no time available. Recently I gave a healing session via Skype and I noticed it was effective. The client and I both felt we were in the same room together. As A Course in Miracles states, “all minds are joined”, so perhaps I should not be surprised. Time and space are ego illusions, not Spirit’s.


I am not someone who heals you, more a ‘spiritual midwife’ who helps deliver to you your own healing insights.


I have found a session normally lasts from 90 minutes to two hours. I start by exploring what the issue is and then change my approach to get the client to relax and facilitate the client to connect with his or her inner wisdom. I have found that at some level everyone knows why they got sick, whether physically or psychologically, and what they need to change in their thinking to be healed. It’s our un-forgiveness in our minds that is reflected in our bodies as patterns of disease or stress. Examples of actual sessions are included in my books and extracts from them can be viewed here


You are invited to decide which of these three levels of payment is right for you:

AU$150, AU$190 or AU$230, with payment by PayPal or credit card before the start of your session. If the lower fee is still too much for you, please write to me and say what you can afford.



“When I asked Michael Dawson whether he possibly could do a healing session with me, concerning a deep anger inside me I discovered recently, I didn't think of a healing session via Skype in the first place. 

When Michael suggested to try a healing session via Skype, I was very glad to have the opportunity to do the session with him, considering that he lives about 10.000 miles away from where I live. And at the same time I wasn't quite sure whether it will work without being physically in the same room. All the more I was surprised how well the session went! I was able to concentrate while Michael was leading me with his instructions and empathic questions through the healing session, helping me to get in deep contact with my inner feelings. I am very grateful for this helpful experience. Thank you very much, Michael!”

Ulrich, Bonn (Germany)


I am on Brisbane, Australia time (AEST) which is +10 hours on GMT. I can tell you what the time difference between you and me is when you email me.

Examples for 28/11/18 : 

8.30am Germany is 5.30pm in Brisbane. 

7.30am London is 5.30pm Brisbane.

6.00pm NewYork is 9.00am in Brisbane.

7.00pm San Francisco/Vancouver is 1.00pm Brisbane

Note: Changes in summertime in your country will change the above examples. 
Brisbane does not have summertime.


Start times for session can be between 9.00am and 5.30pm Brisbane time.


If you are interested in a session please email me: 

Please outline what you want help with.


If you want to recommend me to friends who have not met me, they might find it helpful to check out this video of a recent interview:

This link will open directly in a web browser but will need the free DropBox app on smart phones and tablets.


Michael Dawson


2. New Video Channel:


A Course in Miracles introductory video by Michael Dawson 

I have recently produced an illustrated 11 minute A Course in Miracles' summary which looks at how the Course came and its metaphysical and practical teachings. It introduces the topics of heaven, the separation, guilt, denial, projection, forgiveness and our spiritual awakening.


From head to heart

50m interview with Jack Childs. The first part covers my spiritual journey and in the second part I answer A Course in Miracles questions especially in regard to healing and metaphysics.


I will be adding more videos on Course themes. If you want to be automatically informed of new additions please press Subscribe on the YouTube page where my video is showing and click on the bell that appears so it appears as if it is ringing. This ensures you will get an email update when new videos are added.

These videos will also be listed on my website at:




If you wish to read previous issues please go to


If your email address ends with .au I put your address on my Australian list for advance notice of workshops I am giving in Australia. If you do not want to be on this list please let me know. If you reside in Australia and want to be on this list, but your address does not end in .au, please email me and I will include it.


If you are new to the Course you might find my 3 summaries of help.

You can find them at and








A Course in Miracles Material


Resisting the Course - Michael Dawson 

* Q. Sadness and fear on leaving the ego behind - Kenneth Wapnick 

* Forgiveness - Tina Spalding

Non Dual Teachings

Happiness - results of 75yrs Harvard study-Robert Waldinger

* Self Love - the Arcturian Group 

* Being a parent - Jan Frazier




* Workshops

* Books and Audio Materials for Sale

* Links

* Inspirational Quotations




A Course in Miracles Material



Resisting the Course

Over the years that I have been teaching A Course in Miracles I have heard many accounts of people's difficulty in studying the Course. They illustrate the strong ambivalence many (all?) students have to studying and putting into practice its teachings. These include starting to study and then putting the book down and forgetting it, only reading the Workbook, and getting angry at the book (including destroying it or throwing it away). Some students try to change the Course to make it more acceptable to their egos. Examples include denial (where certain parts of the Course, especially the metaphysics, are not seen), reading Jesus out of the Course and altering its language. Other students may become preoccupied with such questions as "Why did the separation occur?", forgetting that if we practise our daily forgiveness lessons we will receive an experience that will answer all our questions (C-in.4:4-5).


Helen Schucman, who channelled the Course, also exhibited strong ambivalence to taking down the Course and practising forgiveness. She writes of this in her poem Bright Stranger

Strange was my Love to me. For when He came
I did not know Him. And He seemed to me
To be but an intruder on my peace.
I did not see the gifts He brought, nor hear
His soft appeal. I tried to shut Him out
With locks and keys that merely fell away
Before His coming. I could not escape
The gentleness with which He looked at me.
I asked Him in unwillingly, and turned
Away from Him. But He held out His hand
And asked me to remember Him. In me
An ancient Name began to stir and break
Across my mind in gold. The light embraced
Me deep in silence till He spoke the Word,
And then at last I recognized my Lord.

from The Gifts of God
Foundation for Inner Peace


This beautiful poem applies to us all. One part of us, our right mind, welcomes Jesus's help while another part of us, the wrong mind, wants to shut him out. Our egos are happy to ask him for things of this world like health, the right partner, money, etc., but we don't want him to lead us out of this world to where he is.

Jesus is well aware that in studying his Course we will become fearful at times and actively resist it.

This course has explicitly stated that its goal for you is happiness and peace. Yet you are afraid of it. You have been told again and again that it will set you free, yet you sometimes react as if it is trying to imprison you. You often dismiss it more readily than you dismiss the ego's thought system. To some extent, then, you must believe that by not learning the course you are protecting yourself. And you do not realize that it is only your guiltlessness that can protect you.

A Course in Miracles T-13.II.7:1-6

Your mind is no longer wholly untrained. You are quite ready to learn the form of exercise we will use today, but you may find that you will encounter strong resistance. The reason is very simple. While you practice in this way, you leave behind everything that you now believe, and all the thoughts that you have made up. Properly speaking, this is the release from hell. Yet perceived through the ego's eyes, it is loss of identity and a descent into hell.



I saw a cartoon once that showed two doors. Above the first was written "Lecture on Heaven". In front of this door was a long queue of people. The door next to it had the sign "Heaven" above it but no people queued to enter. The fear we have to enter Heaven is mirrored in our fear of studying and practising the Course.


The section in the Text entitled 'The Fear of Redemption" gives a very clear explanation of why we resist the Course. As we progress with our learning we move ever closer to the love of God in our mind. This is the ultimate threat to the ego for it cannot withstand this love and survive. When the ego is finally shone away by God's love our precious individuality and specialness will also go and it is this which terrifies us. One part of us craves the peace of God whilst another part fears it. This translates into wanting to study the Course and leave this world behind (right minded thinking) and not wishing to have anything to do with the Course, seeking fulfilment only in the world (wrong minded thinking).


You think you have made a world God would destroy; and by loving Him, which you do, you would throw this world away, which you would. Therefore, you have used the world to cover your love, and the deeper you go into the blackness of the ego's foundation, the closer you come to the Love that is hidden there. And it is this that frightens you.



Under the ego's dark foundation is the memory of God, and it is of this that you are really afraid. For this memory would instantly restore you to your proper place, and it is this place that you have sought to leave.



Many of us start the Course hoping that we can learn to live more happily in this world. We look forward to finding the right partner or improving our existing relationship, to enjoying better health, to getting on better with people, etc. As we practise forgiveness we will see improvements in these areas eventually reaching "a period of settling down" (M-4.I.A.7), the fourth stage in the "Development of Trust" (M-4.I.A.), where we experience a "reasonable peace". Many teachings have the goal of making our lives here more happy and fulfilling - the book stores are full of them. The Course, however, is not a coping philosophy but a transcendent teaching. In the Bible Jesus says that his kingdom is not of this world. The aim of the Course is to take us to this world, what it calls the Real World. But this means leaving our ego behind, our sense of "I". This leads to the next stage in the "Development of Trust" called "a period of unsettling" (M-4.I.A.7:1) which may last a very long time as we resist letting our individuality go and enter the Real World of oneness with God - the last step on the ladder of trust.


As we start to realise where the Course is leading us we can panic and resist its teachings. We may not realise we are resisting and point to the fact that we regularly read the Course, go to our A Course in Miracles study group and try to forgive. However, to look deeply into our ego thought system is not a pleasant experience. It's more comfortable to live on the surface.


You may wonder why it is so crucial that you look upon your hatred and realize its full extent. You may also think that it would be easy enough for the Holy Spirit to show it to you, and to dispel it without the need for you to raise it to awareness yourself. Yet there is one more obstacle you have interposed between yourself and the Atonement....You are not really afraid of crucifixion. Your real terror is of redemption.



To look without judgement at the hatred in our minds will take us to the darkest foundations of the ego's thought system. This is difficult enough for us to do but beyond this foundation is the love of God, our redemption, and this terrifies us even more as this love will dissolve who we think we are.


It is very helpful to realise we will fear and resist the Course as it prepares us for those moments when we just want to give it all up. Further, when we do start to get glimpses of the Real World with attendant loss of the ego we will understand better what is happening and will be less likely to succumb to fear.


Our ambivalence to the Course can become another chance to practise forgiveness. We might say to ourselves, "Here I go again, frightened of Jesus's love for me and running away again. What's new! I can learn to smile at this and wait patiently for the day when I can let him and his Course back into my life again".


And if you find resistance strong and dedication weak, you are not ready. Do not fight yourself.



The above quote illustrates well Jesus's love and understanding of us. He does not want us to beat ourselves up for being poor students at times but to be gentle with ourselves and our journey with him.


Reprinted from;

A Course in Miracles - Explanations of Major Themes





Q #25: I have been a Course student for a long while now. I am discovering that specialness is hollow and am beginning to see through the ego’s ploys, aversions and manipulations. I detect a sadness and/or fear, though, because of the void that is there when I let go of the specialness that wants to be maintained through material “stuff” or relationships, etc. What would you suggest to help one over the hump, or through the veil so one can see everyone with a healed perception? The void can seem wide and deep, hence fearful.

A: Trust is essential as you go through this. At one point Jesus pleads with us not to “breathe life into your failing ego” (T-17.V.8:4); and he reassures us that “the death of specialness is not your death, but your awaking into life eternal” (T-24.II.14:4). These, among many other passages, are helpful reminders when we are going through rough times that, first of all, Jesus knows what we are going through, and second that everything will wind up okay if we just continue to practice forgiveness.

Most students go through what you have described. One person likened it to standing on a dock with one foot on the dock and the other on the edge of a boat that suddenly starts drifting away from the dock. Unpleasant, to put it mildly! Sometimes this experience reflects the well-known “dark night of the soul” spoken of in spiritual literature. This is discussed in the manual for teachers in the “Development of Trust” section, where Jesus describes the fifth stage as “a period of unsettling” (M-4.I.A.7:1). You are no longer firmly rooted in specialness but have not gotten beyond it entirely, because deep within your mind you know that to let go of specialness means letting go of your identity as a separate, independent individual. That is the underlying fear. If you simply acknowledge that and bring that fear to the love of Jesus in your mind, you will feel better.

There is no way around this stage of the process, if you want to wind up in the “right place.” You never want to force yourself to give up a relationship or something in the world you still enjoy, nor do you want to force yourself to see everyone with a healed perception. If you really wanted to get beyond the perception of separate interests, you would be beyond it. Thus, being honest about your reluctance to let go of specialness is extremely helpful. You also can ask yourself what it would feel like to relate to others without specialness. Sometimes that reveals an element in yourself that you weren’t aware of, a source of resistance that you didn’t know was there. Finally, just be patient and trust the process. 

This Question is from 1400 Q and As which are now available as a PDF from:




From: “Jesus: My Autobiography.”

Channelled by Tina Louise Spalding



Forgiveness is the most important practice based on this understanding. I am not asking you to forgive for no reason; I am telling you to forgive because it is the key that unlocks the door to knowledge. Through the practice of forgiveness, you achieve peace, harmony, and love, and when you are in that state, you are in alignment with the nonphysical and Divine Mind, and you will receive information from that higher vibratory source. Your life will begin to change in a way that is beyond your comprehension at this moment.

This idea of forgiveness, this idea of not reacting to a negative attack from the outside world and instead seeing it as something that you can transform through love and through an open heart and an open mind — these were the teachings. 

Enlightenment is this: It is the absolute transformation of mind, removing all the blocks to love’s presence — removing all blocks, all fears, and all hatreds — and it is often accomplished when beings have done much work themselves, working with love energies, forgiveness, compassion, and these kinds of things. I had done much work through my teens and twenties and when I was on my trek to remove fears and thoughts from my mind that caused pain and suffering. 

I taught forgiveness, for judgment is indeed the biggest interference to connection to the nonphysical world. It is judgment that will keep you in the dream, separated from your Source, this being that you call God that is an overall, overriding energy that pushes you toward love, acceptance, and freedom. 

What I taught and what I am teaching now is this idea of forgiveness when you understand that all of the things you experience in your world are your own creations, so there is no point in attacking them judgmentally because you are literally attacking yourself in unawareness.

This idea of forgiveness is multileveled. You must forgive yourself for the error that you made in creating this world. When you look around the world and do not understand it, when you look around the world and hate it, when you look around the world and see injustice and suffering, then you do not understand the principle of projection. It is not until you understand the principle of projecting the unwanted into the world that you will begin to be able to come to some place of forgiveness and peace. As long as you believe that it is real (in the absolute sense of the word) and as long as you believe that enemies and evil exist out there, you are in the powerless place of the victim. You are in a powerless place of unconsciousness, which is an uneducated state. You do not understand truth — you do not understand that God is love, that All is love — other than what you witness through your mind, which is the projection of all your fears into the world so that you might hate them. The reason you have projected them is you cannot contain that kind of conflict within the mind. The guilt and fear would overwhelm you, and you would go into a state of catatonia, let us say, or have a psychotic break. So what you have done is separate all your fears, all your hatreds, out into the world so that you might judge them. You have heard this phrase, “Judge not, that ye be not judged” [Matthew 7:1, KJV], and you will not accept this until you understand that this world is your own creation and that your enemies are your own frightening aspects of mind that you have separated out so that you do not have to live with them. When you see an enemy or when you see something to judge, you must understand that it is a part of your fractured mind represented outside of yourself to give you some relief from your distorted ideas. When you judge that, then you judge a part of your mind, you feel it as pain even though you might not be aware of it. So this is where the concept of forgiveness comes in, and it is so very important for you to see it not as the way that it is represented in Church teachings and not in the idea that a good person forgives and therefore overcomes badness. What you must understand is that forgiveness is the act or the statement of your comprehension of truth, which is that any crimes committed by other beings are projections of your own mind’s separation and your own mind’s fearful concepts. To love and forgive those will allow you to integrate that aspect of self into mind, and you will become more whole. It is this state of peace — through the practice of forgiveness via the understanding of the truth of your creative process — that you will be able to return Home and return to a state of peace and wholeness.

Join us in this direction toward light, toward love, toward self-acceptance, and toward self-appreciation through the practice of forgiveness and the practice of letting go of the untruths in your mind. That is all forgiveness is: You only remember the loving, you only remember the kind from the past, and you choose only to bring that with you and to offer it to your fellow brothers and sisters. This simple practice of letting go of the negative, the fearful, and the untrue will transform your body, will transform your mind, will transform your experience, and will transform your ability to tap into the creative powers that are given to you by this benevolent force that wants you to vibrate in accord with it in its loving, loving vibration.



Non Dual Teachings



This part of the newsletter offers input from non-dual teachers. What is non-duality? The word ‘non-dual’ means not two. On the first page of the ACIM text there is two line summary of a Course in Miracles. It begins with the line “Nothing real can be threatened.”

This refers to what God created – eternal, formless, spirit. Eternal means never born and therefore cannot change or die. The Course uses the expression ‘the Christ’ to denote this. Behind all the seeming multiplicity of the universe there is actually only one essential reality. Just as all the images on the cinema screen seem different, the light that creates them is one.


There is nothing outside you. That is what you must ultimately learn, for it is the realization that the Kingdom of Heaven is restored to you. For God created only this, and He did not depart from it nor leave it separate from Himself. The Kingdom of Heaven is the dwelling place of the Son of God, who left not his Father and dwells not apart from Him. Heaven is not a place nor a condition. It is merely an awareness of perfect Oneness, and the knowledge that there is nothing else; nothing outside this Oneness, and nothing else within.

A Course in Miracles T-18.VI.1.      


The second line of the summary states ”Nothing unreal exists.” This refers to everything that is born and therefore dies - the ego’s world. Thus everything in the universe including ourselves is not real according to the Course. It is like a great dream. Only perfect oneness is real. 


There are two forms of non-duality – pure and impure. In the impure form God is aware that the universe is a dream and experiences itself through it - God's Leela or play as they say in the East. In the pure form of non-duality God is unaware of the universe. The Course is an example of pure non-dual teachings. A metaphor for this is a cinema projector where the lamp in the projector represents God. When the ego's film of separation is run past the light it is projected onto the screen of time and space. The light of God makes this possible, but the lamp is unaware of what is on the screen and would continue to shine when the film is taken away. To continue with this metaphor the light extending from the lamp is who we are, the Christ. ( See chart


You dwell not here, but in eternity.

You travel but in dreams, while safe at home. 



You are at home in God, dreaming of exile but perfectly capable of awaking to reality. 







Happiness - results of 75yrs Harvard study-Robert Waldinger


Audio 13mins


Video link


Important Lessons on Happiness

What keeps us happy and healthy as we go through life? If you think it’s fame and money, you’re not alone – but according to psychiatrist Robert Waldinger, you’re mistaken. As the director of a 75-year-old study on adult development, Waldinger has unprecedented access to data on true happiness and satisfaction. In this talk, he shares three important lessons learned from the study as well as some practical, old-as-the-hills wisdom on how to build a fulfilling, long life.




Arcturian Group - 12/2/18

We wish to speak of self-love.  We have often spoken of love, what it is and how it is, but there remains a great need on earth for real self-love, one not based self importance and ego.  Until an individual is able to love and respect self, he will be blocked from entering fully into unconditional love because he has left himself out of ONE and thus remains in alignment with separation. 


Humans beings are taught from birth that certain codes of conduct must be adhered to in order to be loved and accepted by society.   If the parents are somewhat evolved, these codes will be primarily based in love but others are taught codes of conduct that arise out of denser belief systems.  


Every person brings their attained state of consciousness with them at birth because in reality you are consciousness and not just physical bodies.  This effects if and how these codes of conduct are accepted and lived which is why parents should not always be blamed for the actions of their children.


Every person, no exceptions, seeks love and acceptance because Oneness is the reality that underlies all creation.  Realization of Oneness is what evolution is and has always been about.  Every soul innately, but usually unconsciously seeks to once again experience the wholeness of realignment with SELF-Source. 


This is the force that drives and governs the actions of human beings in accord with their level of awareness.  The love, acceptance, and sense of wholeness that every soul has sought lifetime after lifetime, is already fully present within  but remains dormant and inaccessible until consciously realized.


If love and acceptance is only received in negative ways, for instance from gang participation or some other organized group, desperate and un-awakened individuals will do whatever is required  in order to experience acceptance and a sense of belonging. (love and wholeness)


Third dimensional ideas about how to experience love and acceptance are usually promoted as being dependent on accomplishment-- concepts that often drive individuals to use any means to be beautiful, handsome, rich, strong, and powerful, etc. etc. in the belief that once these things are attained, they will finally have the sense of completeness, love, and acceptance that they seek.


These dear ones often force themselves into the particular mold they believe will make them worthy, by means that often drain them of true individuality.  However for some who are  spiritually ready, these exercises in futility can be a part of their pre-birth contract, one designed to move them once and for all  beyond seeking love outside of themselves.


Drugs and alcohol are often relied upon when even after achieving human success, there remains an  inner longing for more and sense of failure. These and other distractions can temporarily  relieve the pain but these feelings will continue from  lifetime to lifetime until that which the heart seeks is discovered within.  The soul's yearning to be whole is what drives mankind's continual search for the right partner, a better job, more money, beauty, power etc. etc.


What you as evolving students of truth must never lose sight of is that no one has ever or can ever be separate from love.  Once this  truth becomes your living breathing state of consciousness, the yearning drive to seek  love and acceptance from the outer things (jobs, partners, money, education etc.) dissolves.  Only God is love and when you see a loving person, know that it is God expressing ITself through them. Love exists fully present within you now-you are IT. 


Many who lash out physically, emotionally, mentally, and even spiritually at others have consciously or unconsciously recognized those same unacceptable qualities in themselves although they will deny this in every way possible.   Self loathing is usually  disguised as righteousness taken to intense levels of  judgement and even violence against certain  individuals or groups.  


This behavior is common among those who hold to strict religious rules and regulations of what is right and wrong.  When these dear ones suspect or discover something within themselves outlawed by their narrow belief system, they lash out at anyone or group represents these qualities in an attempt to convince themselves and those around them that the issue is not a part of them.  


Because energy always seeks to align with like energy (oneness) that which is being  judged, is in alignment with similar energy in the person doing the hating and judging, otherwise there could be no reaction or even awareness of the issue.  


Intense personal reactions to some person or group occasionally pop up even for the very evolved, causing confusion and guilt.  This happens because energy from a former belief system  is still resonating in cellular memory.  Without judgement or guilt, utilize these types of experiences as wonderful tools for more fully examining and clearing energies you may still be holding in consciousness.


As individuals  become spiritually enlightened, they often experience intense guilt over past actions. This is normal as you begin to  see the world with awakened eyes.  Experiences are how humans spiritually grow and evolve until they are no longer needed.  Do not give some un-loving action of the past power over you because it has only the power you choose to give it.  All experiences are steps along the path of enlightenment and without them you and the others involved would not be where you are now.


Earth school is a teaching school that begins which pre-school, moves to grade school, then high school, college, and graduate school where  most of you are now earning the right to teach and assist others coming up the ladder behind you.  It is never wisdom to burn down the school once you graduate or to sit back doing nothing in the false belief that you have arrived.  Evolution is a group effort-- ONE  individualized as the many.


Rejoice in your failures and in the parts of yourself that have caused you shame.  We are not saying that it is fine to continue with actions that reflect separation once you know better,  but we do say that it is time to accept that you grew and learned from these experiences qualifying you now to assist others dealing with the same issues. 


In spite of what many paths teach, there is no right way to become more  spiritual, because you already are as spiritual as you will ever be.  No path, teacher, tool, or experience can make you more spiritual than you already are.  Evolution is simply the process of remembering and accepting this fact until it becomes a permanent state of consciousness. 


If you are guided to  read these messages, it means you are ready to let go and move on from the million and one concepts the world presents regarding spirituality, most of which involve looking to some person, place, or thing outside of yourself.  Accept the reality of who and what you are and only ever will be.  This is how you love yourself. 


To know self as SELF is self-love.


Allow any shadow parts to assume their rightful place as representative of who you thought you were at that time.  Let everything  that has caused you to feel "less than" fade away and  Light to take its place.  Everyone is only required to live their highest attained level of awareness, doing the best they can  with what they know in all situations.  There are some who continue to live out from an outgrown level of awareness  in order to be accepted by others.


Humans chose to experience separation when they picked earth as their evolutionary path.  There are those on other planets who have and are evolving without third dimensional experiences.  When fully aligning with the lower resonating energies of duality and separation, humans are unable to access the higher frequencies of their spiritual nature. This is the so called  "veil" that prevents most humans from accessing the higher frequencies.  This is rapidly changing.


Every incarnating soul is aware of the "veil" before choosing "Earth School".  Those of you reading these messages have weathered many three dimensional storms,  lived as all races and both genders, and have experienced intense fear and suffering as well as joy and happiness throughout your hundreds of lifetimes.


Because of this, those drawn to you for spiritual assistance will not tell you anything new or that will shock and dismay  because you have already either heard about or experienced it in this or some other lifetime making you a teacher who embodies truth, understanding, patience, and unconditional love.



We are the Arcturian Group - 12/2/18

Extracted from an article channelled by Marilyn Raffaele




Being a Parent - Jan Frazier

Posted on November 27, 2018


This writing is more personal than most posts on this site. I was encouraged to make it available, even so, in the hope it would shine a light.

The bravest thing I ever did was have children, although I don’t recall summoning courage at the outset. As much as I had wanted to be a mother, through and through, I had no idea what I was signing up for. How love would take my heart in its fist and crush it. How fear would assume a mighty presence in my day-to-day, like an unwelcome creature come to live among us, my son and daughter and their father and I.

But like with most situations that demand raw guts, once I saw the enormity of what motherhood was asking of me, it was too late to change my mind.

How do any of us hold up under the strain of such love, in the face of such undeniable powerlessness?

Fear: something awful would happen to one of my children. I learned CPR when my firstborn was a toddler. Seeing him put all kinds of things into his little mouth, I taught myself the Heimlich maneuver. With both babies, I was obsessed with the prospect of Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (which in those days had little in the way of theory about how to minimize the risk). Maybe not surprising I was consumed by that fear: the nurse-midwife who was supposed to have attended my first birth was not able to come, and the reason turned out to be that her own infant son had just died of SIDS. That close-to-home possibility worked its way into my maternal body, like an insidious virus.

With the first pregnancy, when I learned it was a boy I was carrying, I calculated the year my son would turn eighteen – the age he would have to sign up for the draft. (Having grown up myself in the Vietnam War era, I was never free of the specter of draft for a young man.)

I was consumed with newspaper stories of the deaths of local children, whether from illness or accident. A poet in those times, I wrote reams of poems on the subject. As if maybe writing poetry would keep the monster away from my own children.

Early in my baby boy’s life, I went for my first mammogram, which didn’t go well. So in case there weren’t already plenty of reasons to be ill at ease, now there was the nightmare prospect of my own early demise settling in like foul weather that never cleared up. It wasn’t to be the last mammogram that produced worrisome results. (Although there never was a cancer diagnosis, because of the succession of biopsies, the ongoing experience was of death hovering over the life of the family.)

As my little ones grew, there was the steadily gathering evidence that notwithstanding all my vigilance and good intentions, I could not guarantee my children’s safety and well-being. Let alone anything approximating fulfillment or enduring happiness.

If somebody had pulled me aside, when they were young, and whispered that one day my fun-loving little boy would be a heroin addict, or that my bright-and-shiny daughter would eventually be sunk in crippling depression and anxiety (and more than one debilitating chronic illness), I might have just stepped in front of a truck then and there, certain I would be unable to bear such things.

What mother, what father, doesn’t have their own stories? How do any of us hold up under the strain of such love, in the face of such undeniable powerlessness?

* * * * *

It is something of a miracle that I survived. So have both of my children, now well into adulthood. I’m confident both would report they’re even happy a good part of the time. Though not because their mother has made them so.

The real miracle occurred when my son was sixteen and my daughter was fourteen. Something stepped inside the maternal heart and turned it inside out, removing fear and all its ghastly minions. Overnight I went from being my familiar fearful self to being entirely calm in the face of even the most dire situation. And there was one crisis after another, in those days, casting a bright light on my changed interior. The thoroughness of the relief! Again and again some life development made it vivid: there was something inside that remained its sweet, calm self, no matter what occurred. I had no idea how to account for what had happened to make life this new way it had become. But was I grateful! Mystified, to be sure, but slack-jawed with gratitude. Washed and washed in relief.

There was one and then the other of my young people going out behind the wheel of a car. The sound of the tires backing down the driveway, the shift into drive, disappearing into dark silence. Me having no idea what the night might hold for one or both of them. (I hadn’t forgotten my own teen-aged years, swept up in exhilarating forces, convinced of my immortality.)

Sitting in the quiet living room, I was awash in the awareness that a) anything awful could happen out there, and b) I had no control over it whatever (notwithstanding my clear rules, all the heartfelt guidance). Yet how was this acquaintance with reality no longer a recipe for godawful anxiety, for playing made-up movies over and over in my head: the car crashed into a tree, a six-pack of beer in the car, risky sex?

Miraculously I was able to thoroughly enjoy my evening.

Farther along into the harrowing years, there were the times of the phone ringing in the middle of the night, and it was the emergency room, or the police, and once, a homeless shelter where my son had been delivered in a squad car, post-arrest. Each time the phone pulled me out of sleep, there was a looking square in the face the severity of the circumstances. Yet again and again the primary atmosphere of my getting dressed, then driving to the shelter (the hospital, the police station, wherever it was), was a profound equanimity. At the same time, my mind functioned the best it ever had in my life. Such clarity attended decisions to be made, courses of action to be taken. No fear anywhere. Only love. And always, the vivid awareness of the limitations of this vast love to turn things around. Life seemed to need to take its course, just as it was.

* * * * *

What was most conspicuously noticeable about all of this (and there were to be many years of difficulty, well past the teen-aged times) was this: love was somehow bigger than it had ever been before, when fear had been running the show. Love for my children, surely, but love for anyone, everyone: strangers, animals, even people I once could not abide. Love was unconditional, without boundary. Nothing seemed to be walled off from it. It was the atmosphere in which all of life played out. How strange it all was! Completely new terrain. Love was vast and diffuse enough to be comfortable in the presence of another’s terrible pain (or my own), the enduring uncertainty about everything, the steady knowledge of not being able to control or predict how anything would go.

None of it – not my children’s struggles or the “imperfections” in any of life, current or past – felt as though it was about me. This was in marked contrast with how it always had been before, when I took my sense of self from being (among other things) a mother. Maybe in a way that was the biggest miracle of all. It was like “I” wasn’t even there anymore, at least not in the way I had long experienced myself, when my inner state was determined by how things were going “out there.” By how I felt I was succeeding or failing at one thing or another.

And yet – and yet (how could this be?) – there was, and there is, the most exquisite tenderness toward each of my children. Nothing held back, nothing at risk, nothing in my heart subject to being bounded or threatened, or turned to stone.

If anyone had told me, before everything changed, that I didn’t love my children absolutely, I would have said they were mad. Yet there was no mistaking how fear and attachment had made love small, relatively speaking. How much of the experience of loving them was tainted by attachment to a sense of myself. None of this was clear, of course, except in retrospect.

Fear and self-definition take up space in the heart, putting up walls against love, as an illusory protection from reality.

In the years when my son was in love with heroin, my heart never was tempted to shut down to him. Even when I steadily lived with the knowing he could die at any time, and even as I knew I could not save him (after so many years of trying), there was no temptation to take refuge in self-protection, to wall off the maternal heart, to attempt to brace myself against the prospect of facing every parent’s worst nightmare. How could this be?

Nor was I in the least deluded about the agony that would come, were I to get that worst of all possible phone calls. I did know that I’d be able to be with that too, if it came. Somehow.

* * * * *

Back to the business of bravery being asked of a parent. I see now it isn’t courage that peaceful parenthood requires, so much as it’s the ability to surrender. It’s allowing love to take completely over – love that’s unconditional, undiluted by fear and a sense of a self at risk. It’s being able to really be with reality, to realize the daunting limitation of our ability to shape or protect a child (at whatever age).

It’s surrender that’s enabled what the last fifteen years have been, since fear evaporated. Nor do I take any credit for that. I didn’t “decide” to surrender. It simply stopped occurring to me to resist, to do anything to put myself at a distance from life, just as it was. I became viscerally acquainted with the profound absence of control, along the way losing track of the old familiar self. Love was at last able to take up all the space once constrained by fear and the longing to manipulate life, making it possible to live in reality with ease.

Given that life-as-it-is would seem to be contrary to profound well-being, this development was truly a head-scratcher. Which must be why it’s called “the peace that passeth understanding.”

I take no credit for my son’s and my daughter’s present status of approximate happiness. But am I glad of it? Do I bow my head under the weight of the joy I feel in the presence of it? You bet I do. Do I have any expectation the well-being will sustain, for either of them? I am not a fool. Life is the great teacher.




PLEASE NOTE: The Australian Centre for Inner Peace is not a counselling or psychotherapy centre; 

therefore we do not offer telephone or email service or counselling, therapy, or crisis intervention for personal problems. 

Please see the Contacts section at the end of this newsletter.





Forthcoming Workshops on A Course in Miracles



For up to date information on my workshops go to 



Germany 2019 Dates

Bonn - Sat 15 and Sun 16 June - 2019
10am to 6pm

Return to love
from judgement to forgiveness

The course does not aim at teaching the meaning of love, for that is beyond what can be taught. 

It does aim, however, at removing the blocks to the awareness of love's presence, which is your natural inheritance. 
A Course in Miracles  Introduction to the Text. T-in.1

When a person feels seen and not judged, change happens on its own. it is like magic.
Paul Lowe

We are all created in the image of God and therefore love is our nature, our natural state. Judgements of ourselves and others blinds us to this awareness. Forgiveness of ourselves undoes judgement and begins to reveal the love within us. Any behaviour out of accord with love will show up as a disturbance in us. Our focus will be on identifying and removing the blocks to love.

This A Course in Miracle’s workshop explores the following:

What is love?
Everything is either an act of love or a call for love
From head to heart - the longest journey
Fear of God’s love
Denial and projection
Relationships - special hate and special love
Loving yourself - acceptance
Healing others through love
False forgiveness

No knowledge of A Course in Miracles is required.



An Evening Introductory Talk - Fri 14th June 2019
7.30pm to 9.30pm




Beethovenallee 16

Bonn 53173

tel: 0228 - 36 47 37




Freiburg  2019 June 
Fri 21,[6pm tp 9pm] Sat 22 [10am to 6pm] and Sun 23 [10am to 5pm]

Return to love
from judgement to forgiveness

The course does not aim at teaching the meaning of love, for that is beyond what can be taught. 

It does aim, however, at removing the blocks to the awareness of love's presence, which is your natural inheritance. 
A Course in Miracles  Introduction to the Text. T-in.1

When a person feels seen and not judged, change happens on its own. it is like magic.
Paul Lowe


We are all created in the image of God and therefore love is our nature, our natural state. Judgements of ourselves and others blinds us to this awareness. Forgiveness of ourselves undoes judgement and begins to reveal the love within us. Any behaviour out of accord with love will show up as a disturbance in us. Our focus will be on identifying and removing the blocks to love.


This A Course in Miracle’s workshop explores the following:

What is love?
Everything is either an act of love or a call for love
From head to heart - the longest journey
Fear of God’s love
Denial and projection
Relationships - special hate and special love
Loving yourself - acceptance
Healing others through love
False forgiveness

No knowledge of A Course in Miracles is required.

Margarete Sennekamp
Winterhaldenweg 4,
79856 Hinterzarten,
Tel./Fax: 07652-917530




Germany 2020 Dates

12 - 14 June Bonn

19 - 21 June Freiburg








New teaching and healing materials - eBooks and downloadable MP3s:



Price of all three eBooks has been reduced by half to AU$4.99


1. Healing the Cause -A Path of Forgiveness.

Inspired by A Course in Miracles.

This is the eBook version of the paper back.


2. A Course in Miracles - Explanations of Major Themes

New book in eBook format


3. Forgiveness - A Path to Inner Peace. 

Inspired by A Course in Miracles

This is the eBook version of the paper back.


The eBook versions can be read on Kindle, iPad, Microsoft eReader, Nook, PDF readers (Mac and PC) and most eBook readers.

For more details and how to purchase please visit:



Downloadable Mp3s:


1. Healing the Cause: Self-Help Exercises 1

This MP3 contains the identical four exercises as the CD


2. Healing the Cause: Self-Help Exercises 2

This MP3 contains the identical four exercises as the CD


3. Healing the Cause: 3 Self-Help Exercises in English with German translation

This MP3 contains the identical three exercises as the CD


For more details and how to purchase please visit:



Paperback Books:


Healing the Cause - A Path of Forgiveness.  Findhorn Press 1994

Also available in German, Romanian, French, Dutch, Spanish and Portuguese.


The Findhorn Book of Forgiveness.  Findhorn Press. 2003

Also available in German, French, Polish and Romanian.


For more details and how to purchase please visit:


MP3s (see above) and CDs:


Healing the Cause:

Since 1986 I have been conducting healing workshops in the UK and abroad, and have continually experimented to find healing and forgiveness exercises that are effective.  I have found that a particular exercise can be effective for one person but not another. Accordingly, I was led to develop a series of exercises. Over the years workshop participants asked if these exercises could be put onto audio cassettes and CDs so they could repeat them. This has resulted in the Healing the Cause - Exercise series - Tapes 1 to 4 (2 exercises on each tape) and CD1 and 2 (4 exercises on each CD)


CD - 3 Healing Exercises in English with German translation. 10 Euro


Ex1. Forgiving Ourselves. 

Ex2. Changing Perception and Finding peace. 

Ex3. Changing Perception of another - exercise for two people.


These exercises are similar to existing exercises already available on CDs but are translated into German.




1. Three Steps of Forgiveness. 

This workshop concentrates on the process of forgiveness from the perspective of A Course in Miracles. Includes 3 healing exercises.

 Recorded at the Annual Miracle Network Conference in London, November 2001. 1 hour 12 mins. One CD


2. Finding and Eliminating the Blocks to Receiving Guidance. 

This talk investigates what stops us hearing the guidance that is ever present in our lives. Recorded at the Annual Miracle Network Conference in London, October 20001 hour. One CD


For more details and how to purchase please visit:






Search Engine for ACIM Sites, Definitions and Articles by Joe Jesseph.

A Web search engine dedicated to finding discussion and definitions of terms and concepts found in 

A Course in Miracles as well as Web sites, articles and other writings related to the Course.


Question and Answer Service from the Foundation for A Course in Miracles. 

Their electronic outreach section has a question and answer service on the theory and practice of the Course. Their database of 1,400 questions and answers is searchable. They no longer take new questions as they feel all possible questions have now been put.


Foundation for Inner Peace..........................Publishers of A Course in Miracles and responsible for the translation programme. On-line mail order.


Foundation For A Course In Miracles................FACIM is the official teaching organisation of the Foundation for Inner Peace and the copyright-holder of_A Course in Miracles and all related materials. Publishes the quarterly Lighthouse newsletter. They have extensive on-line mail order for their books, CDs and DVDs.

The Foundation was started by Kenneth and Gloria Wapnick and has moved to Temecula in California. Kenneth is my teacher of A Course in Miracles. His body died in December 2013.

Their publications can also be ordered in Australia at:

Adyar Bookshop

230 Clarence Street

Sydney, NSW 2000

Kenneth Wapnick ......……… Biographical information and excerpts from his writings

Kenneth Wapnick on YouTube

Glossary of ACIM terms from FACIM

"The Most Commonly asked Questions about A Course in Miracles"

by Kenneth and Gloria Wapnick

Index of Links to Miracle Studies Resources ...……....... A rich resource of materials on A Course in Miracles by an ex-staff member of the Foundation For A Course In Miracle. Joe also has a blog and has recently published  A Primer of Psychology According to A Course in Miracles.  ………… A Course in Miracles Resource Web Site for ACIM Students

A Course in Miracles Study groups

Search for A Course in Miracles Study Groups Around the World. 

The Foundation for Inner peace also has a study group search engine.

Miracles Studies Australia  lists study groups for Australia and new Zealand


Purchase ACIM on line

ACIM Historical Recordings & Video


A Course In Miracles Pen Pals:

The Miracle Network hosts a A Course in Miracles pen pals group:

To  join this e-mail discussion group,  send your e-mail address to  

They will send you  updated lists of other e.pals and  inform them of your e-mail address. ACIM discussion:

This web-based discussion is hosted by Joe Jesseph.







About three times a week I send a short quotation from some spiritual teacher or poet to people who have requested some uplifting thoughts. I have included some below. If you wish I can add your name to the email list.



How long, O Son of God, will you maintain the game of sin? Shall we not put away these sharp-edged children's toys? How soon will you be ready to come home? Perhaps today? There is no sin. Creation is unchanged. Would you still hold return to Heaven back? How long, O holy Son of God, how long?


A Course in Miracles  Lesson 250



The true act of forgiveness requires you to see your own judgments as the crime, the one thing that keeps you from connecting with Source.

Making Love to God: The Path to Divine Sex

Tina Louise Spalding

Do understand that you are destined for enlightenment.

Co-operate with your destiny, don't go against it, don't thwart it.

Allow it to fulfil itself.

All you have to do is to give attention to the obstacles created by the foolish mind.


Nisargadatta Maharaj

I Am That


 When you listen to the voice in your head, that

is to say, do not judge.  You'll soon realize: there

is the voice, and here I am listening to it, watching

it.  This I am realization, this sense of your own

presence, is not a thought.  It arises from beyond

the mind.


Eckhart Tolle

The Power of Now


One is more likely to awaken through surrender than through seeking to waken. The effort to awaken is the effort of ego, whereas to surrender is to give up all efforts and to place oneself in the hands of a vast force that is more powerful than any realization of non duality.

When one finally gives up one's futile attempts to make reality conform to one's own wishes, and allows it to unfold on its own terms, all the energy that was tied up in foolish attempts to manipulate the universe is freed up.


Mariana Caplan

Halfway Up the Mountain - The Error of Premature Claims to Enlightenment





Michael Dawson

PO Box 125

Point Lookout

North Stradbroke Island

Queensland 4183